First order of business this morning: I get scared to write. So when I'm absent for days on end, that's likely why. It's not so much that I'm worried about you reading, it's more worry about what will emerge from the depths of me. You see, I'm on a journey. I've fought it for a while. But it finally occurred to me not to fear who I am becoming but to embrace it and not just enjoy the ride but be an active participant. Audacious, I know! So there's that.
I was raised in the Mormon church. I seriously questioned those beliefs in my teenage years and formally left the church when I was 20. Ever since, I've generally considered myself atheist/agnostic. In doing so, I neglected anything of spiritual nature, believing that was either nonsense or not a valid use of my time. All the while though, I've felt drawn to the belief that there is something else... something more. I've struggled with the idea that we live-we die-the end. I don't believe there is some man out there beyond that is God. But some kind of collective wisdom of every being, every soul ~woman, animal, rock & tree~ that has ever been... that resonates.
Right now, what I am drawn to most is absorbing information and more so, realizing and acknowledging the power that surrounds me. From crystals, the moon, within, beyond. Embracing my own soul and femininity seems like a good place to start and I'm feeling the pull of all these things.
Years ago, a shaman friend gifted me two lovely stones, amethyst and quartz, and recently I have started to build a collection. I am beginning a meditation practice and have found that using these powerful crystals enhance and perhaps add focus to the experience. This gorgeous piece arrived yesterday from Polly's shop and I am in awe. It is absolutely stunning.
|zara. amethyst necklace by polly|